My little Diva

I got Addi her first purse and she absolutely loved it. She kept hanging things on her arm like a purse and walking around, so I figured it was time for the real thing. I LOVE having a little girl!

Desire

I woke up at 3:00 last night to feed Addie (insane, I know), and I could not go back to sleep. Feelings of inadequacy in my life overtook me and sleep was long gone. I know people say that when sleep evades you, don't just lay there in bed. But I am always afraid that if I wake up that I will never get back to sleep. After an hour and a half I finally climbed out of bed, read a little scriptures, had a snack, then got on the computer. I started at my my blog, and was somewhat disgusted with myself. Partly because I have barely blogged in the last 6 months, and partly because that is not the only thing in my life that I have no desire to do at all. I don't feel up for doing much of anything lately-cleaning, shopping, playing- not even reading- which I love. I can't decide if it is because I have 4 kids and just can't find the energy, or is it because we have been remodeling and my house is a mess and disaster area- which is making me depressed, or is it something else entirely. I just can't put my finger on it. In the wee small hours of the morning I determined to do better, starting with my blog-probably because it was staring me in the face. My goal is to post something every Wednesday. Hopefully having a set day will help. I also have goals to get the pictures off the camera cards and get them developed and into books, and also to read that beatitude book by Pres. Hinkley. I know, I know- I never read it. But maybe it will change my latest attitude after all! Who knows!